When life is busy it's easy to get caught up in all the roles and responsibilities we have as Mothers. We have to manage the home and hold down the hatches because if we don't then all hell breaks loose. I'm sure you've caught a glimpse of it when you leave the kids and hubby for a few hours only to walk into a complete disaster when you return. Your husband didn't know where you stashed the PB&J so the only thing he could think of to feed the kids lunch was hot dogs and Nutella. The kids definitely know when your gone and seemed to have had plans in the making to choose specific activities Mom would not approve of. And of course, who takes the responsibility to bring order back to the house? Mom! During the day there are multiple instances where you have to put on those different hats of chef, nurse, teacher, housekeeper, accountant and referee. I have to remind myself daily that even though I have so many roles, I can't forget my most important role which is Mom.
Since we've had our third child it has been a whirlwind of activities. I feel like with everything thats gone on I've aged about 10 years due to lack of sleep and stress. I've worn every hat there is to wear within the last few weeks and its been exhausting. For a few days now we've also had somewhat of a difficult time with our oldest daughter. There has been so much transition and big adjustments she's had to navigate as the oldest child. Being the oldest child of four, I can relate and unfortunately when your the oldest child living with two babies, attention can be more directed at the little ones most of the time. One night in particular, Winslow was being especially emotional about every little thing, so I stopped what I was doing, sat down on the couch and tried to talk to her about why she was so upset. Once we got down to the nitty gritty of what she had been dealing with, she said the words no parent wants to hear their child say. She looked at Rory and I with a tears in her eyes and said, "You like Aubrey and Kinley more than you like me because you don't play with me." OUCH! That night I made plans to put everything to the side and just be present for her. The dishes and cleaning could wait, she needed her Mom! As I thought about that night, it made me re-evaluate what I had been doing with my other girls. I realized that I'd been so busy I hadn't gotten on the floor or snuggled Kinley in a while or took just a little more extra time to hold Aubrey close. The hard truth I was faced with was that I had been so caught up in all my other responsibilities I had been neglecting the one respsonibilty that was most important... being MOM!
Our role as Mom requires alot of us. Sometimes it can be overwhelming when you are caring for those precious little ones. You have to provide for them, teach them how to be good kids (because no one wants their kid to be "that kid") all the while trying to keep them alive! It's hard work! At the end of the day our kids could care less if the floor they walk on is spotless or the laundry is folded. What they need more than that is for us to be present and be Mom to them more than we are any other role.
So today, I am making a choice to wear the one hat that is more important than all the other hats I wear during the day...MOM!